Crash test

slow dancing in a burning room

okay i feel extrememly wasted, i wouldn't lie i woke up 2 hours ago.
spent last night compling a playlist of random songs, played it to sleep.
did i mention i really love my nails? i think they're awesome, they're a weird shade of blue.
when i first choose that it seemed alright, then when the manicurist painted it the first time i was totally freaked out, like what in the world?! it was totally freaky. But i got it done, the more i stared at it the more i love it(:
its so weird, how your impression of things change, everytime you see it.
first impressions, lasting memories, second thoughts, how someone's face looks in your head when you think of her, the feelings when you remember dates, then how it really is.
i realised i have this really big problem on doubt, i really love to doubt people, like what they could say never be true. maybe its because of my low self esteem, maybe people dont really realise it but i really do have very low esteem. i'm really affected by what people say about me, but ohwell, that's life isn't it. it was worse in primary school, but its much better now. because i have met some people who'd accept me even as i am now, in this ruined state, getting uglier by the day:( okay, i was joking about the uglier part.(even though it pretty true)
i really hate my phone, its not compatible with my laptop, i can't upload photos directly to the computer, i have to spend them to another phone then upload from there, its really annoying. but i guess i suffer from losing my sonye phone.
(can you tell? even though it has only been 2 hours up, i've been thinking quite a lot)
going for family dinner in a while, i really have a lot to say.
and i'm pretty sure i'm mobving to lj soon, really hate xanga layout now, been putting off moving because i'm really bad at computer stuff like codes and all. i'm really kind of a really wordy person, even thought i would love to go for english classes to improve my english so people can actually understand what im trying to say on my blog, and wordy posts look really weird on xanga. so yeah hence the move, but its really not that i have anything to hide, i mean blogging its like a diary to me, just not that, raw.
what do you say to taking chances?
what do you say to jumping off the earth?

hmm, i realise i dont have much perseverence in any aspect of my life. take my hair for a really good example. i always wanted long hair, but until now its still the same length as it was in well, ever since i could remember in secondary school, which is quite depressing. i have a fetish for changing my appearance once i look the same for too long, it get old and annoying, i mean the only thing i could really change without much effort is my hair, so naturally, hair cuts are really a habit.
i'm not cutting my hair for a month, 3 months, 6months? a year.(ew)

i think i sound like an idiot, i'm pretty sure i used wrong words and spelled over a thousands of words wrong but ohwell!

i really hate it that i can't stand my parents, i can't stand people telling me to get up when all i want is to sit here and drown. i really hate it that when i leave i'll be worried about what people will think/say when they read what i wrote above. i really hate it that what i say is controlled by my head.
hey thats life.(standard)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE!
(belated by an hour , kns!)

i said kns today, i thought of you today, im sorry i forgot:( 
(i look so fat in the photo walao, disgusting)
i'm so glad youre back, -insert your birthday sms here-
for you:(cause that's my face when im with you)

(omg im really getting uglier)
YOU GUYS BETTER COME BACK IN ONCE PIECE!
celine please take care of sharianty and make sure she doesn't drown while trying to catch fireflys, she can't swim.
celine, dont kill sharianty alright even its really tempting to push her off the boat, cause i dont know what i'll do without her, but don't tell her that.

sharianty, don't kill celine even though you have the tendency to be really violent with knives. she's really important to me, but dont tell her that.

amreeta, come back too alright! if not who would suffer walking up and down lee's house and be unglam with me? take care of the two idiots who (i pity you) are associated with you(;
OMG you guys better not get swine flu! take me with you!
i dont want to sleep cause when wake up tomorrow cause i know you won't be here  

met alicia walked up wrong hill:( i found jln mariam, sharianty's new house, love it youre so near me, its hell walking but its walking distance.
thanks a million and one la alicia, im sorry about your sleep
was late meeting celine, i think today was really in a annoying mood, like all the times i had to say bu kept quiet while studying with crystal all came out HAHA. studied for 12hours plus but like we did only one chapt of bio each ahaha! cannot make it.
ohoh, and leena i know how to rebut your stupid mean comments!!!!!(:
i learn from celine hehheh! talked a lot today and days with sharianty but i think i'll forever have things to say to you two.

Celine, youre awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!
'now no more, now i hate you'
and when you hit the coast,(of malaysia)
i hope you think of me

and please let it be the good times, please dont let me affect you.

i'm scared i didn't know what i was doing till you told me.

its just 2D1N la, can make it one.

ohmy theres no church due to swine flu, please God heal those in pain and help those who are scared.
i miss cedar cell, all of us.

studied today, will study tomorrow!
im watching prince caspian now
this morning went for cip with dancers, then studied with crystal tanya and shar, the went for manicure.
Xy and me were twins for the day
yesterday, shar came and we studied
tuesday, celebrated crystal's birthday in school, went out with celine & shar.
leena and i declare monday, mothertongue day!
can't wait to meet 3 8 mafia!!!!, have kellie's studying stayover, studying with vanessa and hopefullly alicia, meeting with tianqi again, watch the performance at victoria threatre.
oh and the end of midyears.
havent seen celestine in damn long!
i hate celine and sharianty for leaving me.(HATE YOU HATE YOU HATE YOU)
i hope you guys major enjoy yourselves and just well, come back alright!
(missing you guys already even though youre still here)

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stay awake

haven't updated on life much, all i want to do is study now, i haven't touched bio, maths and history.
funny, that's all my subs. if only i could do without sleep.

my life's in distress, i need to sleep.

this is going to be about sleeping,

You know you have had enough sleep when you feel alert within 30 to 45 minutes of rising.

but i dont understand why whenever i wake up, i feel like staying in bed, never alert.

Unfortunately there is no way to train your body to need less sleep. The latest research is showing that your sleep requirement is probably genetically determined. The vast majority of people require 8 to 8.5 hours per night. There are a lucky few "Short sleepers" that can get by with less. There are many stories of people living on only a few hours sleep per day. I suspect that most of these are urban legend type of stories.

You can often get by with less for some short period of time but your sleep debt will start to affect you quickly. You may not even feel "Sleepy" often the symptoms are "fatigue" , lack of motivation, being easily frustrated, anger, depression, loss of enjoyment in life etc.

i'm depressed, i need time.
i'm not going to sleep tonight, i can do it!
//edit, that was random.